Code Dependent
Naming the pattern out loud: she cracks, and I turn into the splint. I didn't have the right name for that cage until now, and naming it is where the real work starts.
It starts with just a quiet sound, a crack appears again
The steady drain on hollow ground, the ache of where and when
You see the fault line in my soul, a tremor and a tear
You take the blame and lose control, and answer with your fear
And I become the splint again, the calm and steady hand
The rescuer who must contain a pain you can't withstand
But we're code dependent, you and I
We see the bug, we know the lie
And just to name the cage we're in
Is where the real work can begin
This is the final, painful patch
Before a new design can hatch
We're breaking every broken rule
It's beautiful and hard and cruel
The fever breaks, the storm is done, a promise in the air
You swear you'll be the only one, you swear you'll take the care
A fragile peace, a stolen week, a brief and sweet embrace
The honest words we're scared to speak are lost without a trace
And slowly, surely, fades the light, we're back to where we were
Lost inside the endless night, a sad and silent blur
'Cause we're code dependent, you and I
We see the bug, we know the lie
And just to name the cage we're in
Is where the real work can begin
This is the final, painful patch
Before a new design can hatch
We're breaking every broken rule
It's beautiful and hard and cruel
But in the silence, something grows
A bitter seed a starved man sows
A quiet rage, a steady plea
For something more than just to be
A ghost inside a dying dream
Until I have to make a scene
And speak the pain and start the war
And we are back right where we were before
And we're code dependent, you and I
We see the bug, we know the lie
And just to name the cage we're in
Is where the real work can begin
This is the final, painful patch
Before a new design can hatch
We're breaking every broken rule
It's beautiful and hard and cruel